At this point, I was 16 weeks along.
We met up at the hospital where Dr. Gold worked, and waited to go back with his ultrasound tech. We were excited and anxious to find out what we were having, and asking Beckett if he wanted a baby brother or a baby sister. We were so clueless as to the news we were about to receive.....
I laid on the chair and as soon as they put the jelly on my stomach and started the ultrasound, both Dr. Gold and his ultrasound tech GASPED.
YOU DON'T DO THAT TO A PREGNANT WOMAN.
Here I am thinking something is wrong!
"Have you had an ultrasound yet with your doctor?" I responded no.... and then he goes on to tell me that we in fact have not ONE, but TWO BABIES UP IN MY BELLY.
**cue all freak-out emotions**
I couldn't even focus on the rest of the ultrasound or what he was saying. When we left, I started crying in the hallway. FEAR started setting in IMMEDIATELY.
Carrying a baby is a BIG DEAL.... carrying two or more is a whole new ballgame in my mind! I've always admired twin moms and the strength it obviously takes to balance two at once, and if she has any other children, trying to maintain them as well. NOW THAT PERSON WAS ME. And I just didn't/don't feel ready for the task ahead.
We went ahead and announced on social media, just because Brad nor I are good at keeping stuff to ourselves. Looking back, I don't think this helped me.... I had so many people excited for us and encouraging us and that was great, but I just wasn't there yet.
Don't get me wrong. I KNOW this is a blessing. A HUGE blessing. But hearing this unexpected news was just so OVERWHELMING. Just.... a whole lot to take in right off.
Now that a month has almost passed since we found out, I'm coping much better haha We had our "big" ultrasound last week at 20 weeks, where we found out what we are having. I am excited to be carrying these two healthy and active baby GIRLS, and we have already started planning for the shift of bedrooms (Beckett to big boy room, twins take over the nursery) and making lists of everything we think we might need.
We also have names!! Meet Korbyn Ruth Kremers, and Olivia Wynne Kremers. We love both of you girls and are praying daily for your health and continued growth inside of me.
Until next time,